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I was reading Hunger Games then, but there is always this thing that always disturbs me. What will 2012 give me?

I hope it will not be a bad year. This year, 2011, was awesome. I gain true friends, learn new things, get closer to God and discover myself. I gain more confidence than I was before and I became being myself again. That’s good. ;)

What will 2012 give me? End of the world (December 21,2012)? No one knows really the exact date of doomsday except God for everyday is a struggle for living. I mean, we sleep and we don’t know if we will wake to the next day right? Thank God, I am still alive and typing today.

This is what is bothering my mind. There are nine days left before 2012 and eleven days before the school days starts again. I hate it, I need more vacation. It’s good to relax here at home doing nothing. There are times that I’m bored but I don’t care. I am doing nothing! - that’s the point because when we go back to school, these days will be missed.

(This guy is awesome)

CAT stuff. There’s no CAT experience for me this month. I attended my class’s retreat for the first week and suspension of classes (half day) for the second week. During the latter week, I was problematic because no one told me that CAT classes will be suspended. It was dismissal time when I received the information wherein there will be no CAT for the HS. How about the EHS? They told me to ask Sir Jucutan since Sir DJ lost his precious BlackBerry. I waited for three hours of calling him. At 9:00pm, he still haven’t replied. So, logged in on Twitter. I have been reading tweet about the UST’s suspension of classes at 3:00pm. Should I dismiss EHS? I should. I don’t like CAT classes for the week either. There’s always this reminder that often popped in my head that time - “Never declare anything unless it is from higher authorities”. Whatever. I just listened to my own perspective and declared suspension of CAT classes. Then, I was thinking that am I too dumb and late to realize these things? Knowing that the university will suspend classes after 3:00pm, there would still be CAT? But, do I have the power to declare things that are not yet approved by my higher authority? Another information, the office said that it is up to Sir Jucutan or Sir DJ to suspend these things. My mind is blown. 

This is not the problem. On January 14, we will have an Inter-Platoon Competition from 8:00am-3:00pm. This will be their periodical test plus, we will have judges from different schools that is why this a big event. Almost everybody hates to have CAT training (it is different from “almost everybody hates CAT”). The contradiction here is this will happen on a Saturday and schedule for the 3rd Periodical Test is nearby but it is already approved by the two principals so, this event will really push through. By the way, this activity will also boost the name of the both high schools since the judges will come from different schools (I don’t their names). Once again, our organization will be bombarded with critics. I am not being pessimistic, just realistic. I pray to God for whatever happens.

I felt pity on our organization, especially for the latest rumors I’ve received from different people. In three years of staying, it’s the first time I’ve heard feed backs like my officers are “flirt”, “snobbish”, “rude” and etc. I don’t like it. My batch mates don’t say negative things about me except that bitter girl wearing green. I am not the only one who runs this institution, not only Joy but us. These false comments are never true. I trusted them. Whatever bad things they did, I’m sorry. I’m apologizing behalf of them. Sounds cheesy but I loved them. That’s how a leader care too much for his subordinates. It’s ironic. No matter how much they don’t care about you, you will still care for them but that’s okay. I have no regrets for my duty. 

(Those high expectations are meant to be cracked)

No regrets. I know to myself I will never receive any recognition for my efforts this graduation. Sir Millares (Corps Commander 2009) is a valedictorian from his batch. After all his efforts, many blessings returned to him which earned him the highest leadership award in EHS. Leadership award, not just a service award. I know no other Corps Commander can top that verdict. It’s an advantage, he’s from EHS. Almost everyone despises yet respects CAT there. In HS, well, we’re invisible. No one sees us except for Ma’am Manapat and other veteran people from the faculty room. All they recognize are people who frequently held events at the Benavidez Auditorium and join different competitions in various places. They really deserve it but how about us? Never. Never will they appreciate those times wherein we punishing those boys whose hair hasn’t cut 2x3, transforming misbehave people to disciplined privates for at least two hours, handling two schools with different cultures and perceptions, conducting Colors in reputable programs and having a successful Bivouac with no casualties (for the first time in many years) and minimal trash talks within the group. Should one of us still deserve for at least that service award? 

Enough with this drama. Never expect because it often gives us disappointments. I admit, I was pessimistic while typing this entry. I failed to remember my Twitter background (Don’t be a Negatron, be an Optimist Prime). Who knows what will happen next. 

(Be an Optimist Prime! Not a Negatron)

Peeta joined with the Career tributes which left Katniss helpless. I just wish her to be my side (I saw her version in the movie). Going to read Chapter 14. 

(Yeah! :-bd)